Dakota and the Killdeer (is that spelled right?)

Here are the two baby Killdeer (sp?) Dustin found the other night. They were SO tiny and cute. Dakota kept the parents at bay while we got a close look at them.

Dakot has decided that is in fact a WATER DOG! She doesn't even need coaxing anymore to go for a swim in the horse trough. Here she is showing her skills.

I missed the REALLY funny one of her trying to get in with her butt in the air but these are still pretty cute.

She was watching her Daddy find her rocks to play with.

For Bill...

My brother has accused me of not having a life... or maybe it was not doing anything in my life because I hadn't posted anything new on here. I was not so sure people actually look at this SO y'all write a comment and let me know you're out there.

I have a life Bill! HA HA! It's been a very fun spring. Dustin and I have made a couple trips to the Columbia River to play in the water with Dakota, we spent the weekend in Moyie Springs at the BIG Spring Muddin' event (thousands of people attend!), we (Dustin) helped Carlee and Richard rototill their backyard and went to Nascart Speedway to race go-carts (SO SO FUN!), celebrated my grandma's 75th birthday. The only bad part about Grandma's weekend was I caught the flu Saturday and didn't get to spend much time with my extended family that was visiting. :-( hmmm.... lots more I'm sure has been happening... I'll close with some pictures of the last month or so.

Friday night at Moyie!

Watching the trucks go through the pits at Moyie!

My handsome guy!

We were lauging HYSTERICALLY!

What a goofball but he's my goofball!

Playing at the Columbia

Fun in the sun!

Dakota playing in the river

Bill and I waiting for dinner

Spring Break

Hi All! Ok not going to write this one except to caption photos... had a GREAT Spring Break! WAY too short but lots of fun! :-)

SEATTLE!

Went to visit my college roommate, Amanda. We spent 2 days shopping and 1 day in Seattle.... shopping!! Basically we shopped, talked and ate! So fun!!

NEW Stuff!!!

SO there are several new happenings in my life besides Dustin... although he is a pretty wonderful aspect of my life! I feel like an adult BECAUSE I bought my first car! It's a '99 Pontiac Grand Am GT Coupe, Dustin calls it Grandma because if you put Grand Am together and switch the A and M around that's what you get. So I think it's her nick name. ;-) BUT she is awfully sporty AND has a sunroof!! Bill says I ruined it by putting a car seat in the back (no I don't have kids but I do have friends with kids who frequent my car).

I also signed a lease on a new apartment. I am truly blessed to have parents who let me live with them for a few months while I figured my life out a little but it is time for my own space again. SO I am moving into a 1 bedroom apartment! I looked at one that is identical to mine and they seem big but I'm sure they aren't as big as I think but then again I have been living in my old bedroom crammed with almost ALL of my stuff so ANYTHING seems huge. It's a traditional 70's apartment... orange countertops and all! I'll update you on it after the BIG move... had I not bought a new car this would mark the 10th move with the Toyota but instead its' the first with Grandma the wonder car... or Grandma the speed racer... hmm have to come up with something cute...

So Dustin is still wonderful as ever! He and Bill went with me when I bought my car and went through all the paperwork the guy had and made sure I was getting a good vehicle. He laughed at me the whole way home though because I kept squeeling from being so excited! We have been staying very busy and having lots of fun together. We took my brother to the 7 mile ORV park a couple weekends ago and now I heard rumor that he wants to build a big truck now... oh the boys in my life!

Hope you all had a wonderful Easter! I am off next week for Seattle to visit my college roommate and enjoy a Spring Break trip! Yahoo! I will post pictures from the trip when I get back.

Anyway the pictures below are from this month.

At the ORV park

Dustin!

Bill!

Me sitting in the S-10 waiting for another round of water and mud!

WE weren't squished...

Dakota looks like she wasn't having much fun...

Maybe she was just tired...

SO HAPPY TOGETHER!!!!

Light...

Well I was almost to the point of one blog per month.. course I don't know if ANYONE actually reads these but oh well it helps...

Dakota and me!

Can I just say I've found a light at the end of the tunnel? I am SO happy! Life is turning around, have a wonderful new boy in my life (more about him in at a later time), have been able to get out and do a lot of new activities as well as keep up with the old ones, test drove some new cars- now know what I am looking for, and I almost have enough $$ saved up to get into my own apartment! I am having the best time and am really, really LOVING life!

My Valentine!

So my new gripe... people who think they know what is best for me.. COME ON PEOPLE, its my life! If you want to be part of my life your job is to support me! If you don't agree with something I am doing or have done then voice your opinion and move on because I'm not about to change decisions in my life for you. It's my life (hey isn't this a theme from the last post?). My first reaction to criticism is of course to be angry because that's just the way I roll but in all honesty, it hurts to have certain people that are very close to me don't want to try and see what I see-- or hold me to my past. It's the past for a reason and we can't get it back... just keep moving forward and if I make mistakes then that' s my own doing and I will learn from them and grow stronger for them. Hmm is this coded enough for internet?? Ha ha! Can I just say that I have THE MOST AWESOME LITTLE BROTHER EVER! He is so great! All I had to do was call him and he sat on the phone with me and let me explode on him for about an hour! Siblings are great!

My other new issue... trying to split my time between family and friends... this is a hard one but I think I am doing a pretty good job. The problem now is people who are used to seeing me ALL the time are not as fond of seeing me some of the time. I have a life, my own life to live and that's what I'm doing.

Thank you to all of you who have given me a tremendous amount of support these last few months! I really appreciate your words of encouragement and your silence if you weren't sure you agreed with certain things. Sometimes silence is key. Love you guys!

I wasn't married, for crying out loud!

OKAY, so my new gripe (sp?) is people who seem to think I should be in mourning over my previous relationship. The last few weekends I have gotten to get out and have a ton of fun with some of my friends, met some new friends, and reconnected with old friends. This is what I think I should be doing, connecting with people, not sitting at home crying in my beer and pining for a relationship that would have never worked out.

HE and I were not married... it's not like we're going through a divorce that isn't final yet... I broke up with him, I moved out, I have been done for awhile now and I have every right (and so does he) to go out and have a great time! I came up with a new line this weekend: I feel like I've been on "pause" for 5 years, now I'm catching up. Truly, that's what it's felt like, a pause button on my life because the 5 years with him didn't REALLY go anywhere. Yes, I have learned A LOT of things about myself and about what I will and won't put up with but frankly I went from college student to housewife and missed being young me in there.

I don't know, maybe I'm complaining over nothing but it sure is annoying to hear that someone can't understand WHY I would want to go out and have a good time with my friends so soon after my break-up but ya know what... TOUGH LUCK, it's my life.

On a side note... it's been 1 month today and no thoughts of turning back!

First post

Hi all,
Well I'm not quite sure why I think I need a blog but we shall see how this goes. I have always been intrigued by people who do blog so thought it was high time I put myself in their shoes.
This probably won't happen very often that I actually have time to get on here and add information but important details or frustrations will probably show up frequently.

So the newest piece of my puzzle:
I am single. I split up with my ex about 3 weeks ago. I am now living the "good" life of being able to make my own decisions.
I'll tell you ya don't realize how much you are missing out on until you suddenly can take part in activities of all shapes and kinds! Yahoo! Know what my first action as a single person was... new tattoo!! My best friend and I got matching tats on the top of our foot! Not the best decision in January but I love it!

Another piece of the puzzle:
SO last night I am hanging out at my best friend's house when my ex shows up on her doorstep. He proceeds to get down on one knee and propose to me!!! We have been broken up for 3 weeks... can you guess what I said... NO!!! Over and over I said NO. I couldn't believe he even thought that would solve problems or that I would actually say Yes. I mean you don't ask someone unless you think they will say yes, right??? I mean I am done, I have said that I am done, but apparently he doesn't think I am done... what do I have to do to prove that??? Maybe last night was enough proof for him.

Anyway that's the latest snipit of drama in my life... hopefully things SLOW down from here on out... or I might just lose my mind.