Oh the guilt

I love this little boy. I am head over heels for him. And... I have already screwed him up. Now my friend says that you can't screw up a three month old baby. Are you curious about how I've screwed him up??? Okay here goes... we still sleep together... and most of that is on the couch which also means that in the last 3 months I've probably slept in my bed with Dustin umm... hmm... well not enough let's just say that.

Now I know if any of you reading this are mothers you probably have some motherly advice to give me about things to try and I would love to hear them but really, this is my fault and my problem because I truly do love sleeping with him. I love feeling his breath on my cheek and knowing he is okay whenever I feel the "need" to check. It also does drive me nuts. I want to be able to sleep with Dustin, I want to sleep a solid night without my son draped across me BUT I know this won't last forever. I know that he WILL sleep by himself sooner than I am probably going to be ready. I love this little boy and when he's with me I know he's okay.

Please don't think that I don't leave him alone, trust me, I do. He has stayed with all of his immediate family members for several hours at a time and truthfully... during that time... I really didn't miss him too much. I like being me for a little while and not just Dax's Mom. I adore being Dax's Mom but any Moms out there know that from time to time ya gotta get yourself back.

As I type this Dax is sacked out on my shoulder... I should go lay him down but I know he will wake up immediately. I should go put him down, I will go put him down...... tomorrow....

Ya see my problem????

Christmas and Beyond

Oh my it has been too long since I wrote a post! Seems like any time that I have is of course devoted to Dax, Dustin and work. EEEKKK! Dax is growing like a weed and such a trooper. He did great on Christmas when we took him all over the countryside to be sure we saw all the family.

I went back to work on January 4 and even though I had huge trepidation about going back to work it really hasn't been too bad. I am truly blessed to be able to take Dax to the office with me, work from home two days a week and have my brother, dad and Dustin's dad off work to help out. So thankfully Dax doesn't have to be in daycare yet. Yahoo!!!

Dax's is now batting at his toys, babbling up a storm, smiling at people, and just entirely too sweet. I am so in love with this little boy!! I have no idea how much he weighs now but we go to the Dr again in mid February so I'll know details then since really household scales are detailed enough to judge his weight.

Sorry this post is so sporatic but that's my life these days! Oh yeah--- Dustin and I bought a "adult" truck! We got a Chevy 3/4 ton duramax diesel--- best part is the car seats fit SO much better in the backseat!! Don't even have to slide the seats forward or turn Dax's seat to fit it in the back, such a nice thing!

Ok on to pictures...