Things...

SO I have a WONDERFUL cousin, Megan, who is due the exact same day as me with her first baby, a girl! Oh how I wish she lived closer! She recently posted on her blog about somethings that she wished she'd known before she was pregnant. This got me thinking so thought I'd generate my own list of completely random things that relate to this pregnancy...

1. losing sight of my toes- I can still see them! I can still paint them even! It's a little more difficult and I usually end up putting glitter over the paint to disguise the mistakes but I can still do it all on my own.

2. My belly button- I still have one y'all! It hasn't popped or flattened out yet... guess that means that baby isn't done yet, right?

3. The size of my belly- I seriously thought that with only 6 weeks to go in this pregnancy that I would be toting around a GIGANTIC belly but I am still getting the "oh you're so small" comments everyday... except from Dax's handsome father who reminds me that even though my belly isn't huge it is definitely there. haha!

4. Ultrasounds- I totally did not realize how much joy and frustration ultrasounds would bring into my life. The joy and excitement that comes each time I gaze at Dax on the fuzzy screen or learn something new about him blows my mind and makes every ache and pain worth it BUT the frustration that comes with the bill after each of them and the uncertainty of how he is making his way into this world is driving me nuts! I did get the results from my last ultrasound... but I'm saving those for after my Dr's appointment tomorrow so I have "official" news instead of my assumptions to tell y'all.

5. Preparedness- Is that really a word? Okay so I seriously thought that by this point I would feel like I knew what was going on, I thought I would feel in control and like everything is where it should be. I totally do not! I know we are ready for him, I know that we have all of the essentials, and I know that really truly you can't be prepared for your first baby BUT that doesn't stop me from wondering " Are we REALLY ready?" "Can we handle taking care of a brand new baby 24/7??" okay must pause with post to take deep breaths haha!

6. I did not realize that people telling me how my baby is going to act would drive me completely bonkers! Seriously people, if I don't even know him REALLY how can YOU know what he is going to be like??

7. I will never get tired of how excited and curious my brother is about this coming baby. He is always poking my belly and trying to get his nephew to move so he can feel him-- it hasn't worked yet. I've also been amazed at the questions he has asked me about being pregnant and how I feel-not just about being pregnant but being a mom in general.

8. How wierd it still feels to know that I'm pregnant. Ever since I was little I have wanted to have a baby, to be a mommy but now that I actually am it feels so foreign, so odd. Maybe that's related to how much of a surprise this baby was but I really thought that by now I'd think of this as "normal."

9. His Name- it was made me laugh and shake my head sometimes with how people react to the name we picked out for our little guy. The funny thing is that I really don't care if they like it or not. It just feels like his name, I haven't thought for even a second that Dax just isn't going to work for him. Of course he isn't here yet so maybe when we get a good look at him it won't seem right but I can't imagine any other name for him. My mom suggested that we spell is name with an extra "x" at the end but after discussing it with Dustin we decided against it... I shouldn't say we discussed it, really the conversation went like this: Me: "I'm not sure about the extra 'x' I've already written it so many times with 1 'x'" Dustin: "We're not doing the extra 'x'" Case closed. :)

10. I really was not prepared for the generosity of others. We have so many wonderful friends and family members that have offered to let us borrow things or have their baby items that won't be needed anymore or have offered advice on what you REALLY need when you have a baby and what really isn't necessary. We are truly blessed! Have I mentioned all the fun new baby clothes and items we have received? Thank you just isn't enough to express how grateful we are to our friends and family!

11.Heart burn... oh the heartburn! I'm pretty sure that everything I put into my mouth gives me heartburn with the exception of chocolate milk. Plain milk probably wouldn't either but I can't stand the stuff, haha!

12. I LOVE feeling Dax move. Sometimes I will poke at or push (lightly) on different areas of my belly to feel him move around. The other cute thing is if Kyleigh is sitting on my lap he will kick at her. He also has a tendancy to move when Dustin starts talking, I think this is so wonderful because to me it's him saying, That's my Dad, I know him! :)

13. Not feeling like I have to be skinny for the first time in my life, the rounder the better! Enough said. :)

14. Dustin and I created a life, how awesome is that?!?! We created a little boy who will join us in roughly 6 weeks!! (he will be getting a memo in about 3 weeks reminding him of his due date)

I think that rounds out my little list here. :) I know it's completely random but... well... that's my mind these days!