Sunday, September 11, 2011

Remembering 9/11/01

Where were you when the world stopped turning?

On September 11th, 2001 I woke up in a horrible mood. Why? Because I had just ended a relationship with a horrible boyfriend who was verbally abusive and extremely controlling. While I should have felt great relief in this, I was actually terrified because he had also threatened to kill himself and me. Not a great thing for a senior in high school to deal with.

So that morning as I came up the stairs in a really crumby mood to head out the door to school I remember my Mom saying 'you have to see this' and pointing to the TV. I remember looking at it and thinking why do I care what is going on across the country. I remember saying "I don't care" to her and walking out the door. Boy would those words come back to haunt me. When I got to school the gravity of what was actually happening to our country was really hitting.

All of a sudden it didn't matter to me what I had gone through the last few months or the night before. It did feel like the world stopped turning on 9/11/2001.

I remember clearly watching the TV all day long. Being glued to the happenings in New York , DC and Pennsylvania. I remember crying. I remember suddenly being so worried when I remembered that one of our very close family friends now lived in PA and who's father in law was working in New York. I remember being scared, really scared because of the unknown-ness of what was to come.

If anything good came from those days following the attacks it was wanting to be that much closer and in touch with our family, friends and our country. About a week after the attack I road on the Chewelah float as one of the princesses in Odessa, Washington. It was a wonderful parade but a somber one as well. I have never been to the parade there before or since so I don't know if this is normal but there were so many boy scouts, veterans and other service men and women being honored throughout the parade. There were also so many flags and flag pins to show support for those affected by 9/11 and also to raise money to send to the many fundraisers going on throughout our country. Even us princesses waved flags throughout the entire parade instead of our hands. It felt good to pay respect to our country in a public way.

About a month after the attacks I was at a snowmobile race and someone announced over the loud speakers that we had launched our attack on terrorists. I remember hearing cheers and applause and then I remember thinking... what does that really mean though. It's not like we can do that without risking the lives of our people once again. I also remember people leaving the races because they were afraid there might be immediate retaliation.

The summer following the attacks we went to New York for a family wedding. We got to see Ground Zero in person and I remember thinking how huge it was and trying to imagine what it must have looked like before.

One of the eeriest and probably deepest felt thing we did on that trip was ride the Staten Island Ferry. One of our friends had told us that when we were halfway across to turn back and look at the New York sky line. She said in that moment try to picture what those towers must have looked like before. Then to be sitting on the ferry and think of what it would have been like to be standing in that very spot and watch a plane fly into the tower because someone was standing in that very spot on 9/11 and someone actually watched it happen. I remember the lump in my throat thinking of whomever had been in my spot just a few months prior. I also remember saying a prayer for those affected by 9/11.

Where were you when the world stopped turning on that September day? Were you in the yard with your wife and children Or working on some stage in L.A.? Did you stand there in shock at the sight of that black smoke Risin' against that blue sky? Did you shout out in anger, in fear for your neighbor Or did you just sit down and cry? Did you weep for the children who lost their dear loved ones And pray for the ones who don't know? Did you rejoice for the people who walked from the rubble And sob for the ones left below? Did you burst out in pride for the red, white and blue And the heroes who died just doin' what they do? Did you look up to heaven for some kind of answer And look at yourself and what really matters? [Chorus:] I'm just a singer of simple songs I'm not a real political man I watch CNN but I'm not sure I can tell you the difference in Iraq and Iran But I know Jesus and I talk to God And I remember this from when I was young Faith, hope and love are some good things He gave us And the greatest is love Where were you when the world stopped turning on that September day? Were you teaching a class full of innocent children Or driving down some cold interstate? Did you feel guilty 'cause you're a survivor In a crowded room did you feel alone? Did you call up your mother and tell her you loved her? Did you dust off that Bible at home? Did you open your eyes, hope it never happened Close your eyes and not go to sleep? Did you notice the sunset the first time in ages Or speak to some stranger on the street? Did you lay down at night and think of tomorrow Or go out and buy you a gun? Did you turn off that violent old movie you're watchin' And turn on "I Love Lucy" reruns? Did you go to a church and hold hands with some strangers Did you stand in line and give your own blood? Did you just stay home and cling tight to your family Thank God you had somebody to love? [Repeat Chorus 2x] And the greatest is love. And the greatest is love.

Where were you when the world stopped turning that September day?

Saturday, September 10, 2011

10 on 10-September

Ten pictures from my day...
wish I had remembered this project first thing in the morning...
missed some prime morning Dax shots, darn!

I just love the old chicken coop on our property
Had to get a shot of it :-)

Fall colors!

Can you say YUM!?
Vanilla Yogurt with Blueberry pie filling!

It was at least 90 degrees today but the kittens still curled up together to nap

Mama and Dax

Dakota sneaking in a lick

Sweet little white butterfly on my lavender

Beautiful sunflowers from my Grandma's house
sorry it's sideways, couldn't get the darn thing to turn

Mom and I were laughing because this squash was almost as big as Dax.

Carrying the freshly cut sunflowers inside

Saturday, August 13, 2011

10 on 10



So I've decided that beginning on the 10th of September I am going to start posting 10 pictures from the 10th of each month and tell you what's going on in them... we'll see if I can actually do this since the 10th will be shortly after we get into the swing of school... either way I think it is a fun project. :-) I even put a reminder in my cell phone!
We have two new arrivals at our house! Two beautiful kittens! Dax is in love with them :-) They don't have any names yet and I'm starting to think I may do a naming contest with my students if we can't come up with names by the time I go back to work. Since we've only had them a few days and they are only 8 weeks old their personalities are still coming out. I'm confident we will have names soon but right now even if they had names we wouldn't know which was which because they are almost identical!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

it's August but my mind is in September

Today is Dax's last day in daycare where he has been going since he was 9 months old. He has made some wonderful little friends- especially Ty- and I am so sad that he won't be going there anymore. Unfortunately we have to make a change due to dollars and cents. Can't stand the idea of paying twice as much for daycare when it is the same daycare as last year... never mind about hat... I don't need to rant on here like this.
So today since it is my last day this summer without Dax I thought I'd start getting organized for going back to school. I still have 27 more days but my mind is stuck on what September may be like since I will be in the office 5 days a week, Dax in daycare at least 3 days a week and added cost of daycare. I am SO blessed that Dustin doesn't work on Mondays and will keep Dax at home with him so he doesn't have to be in daycare everyday. They will have a wonderful time together!
Even though we have had Dax in daycare for all of last school year we are looking at added costs during the month of September due to everyday daycare and a very slight increase in the cost as we switch daycares. Because of this, I am planning out our meals for September to all be either freezer meals or crockpot meals during the week. I'm hoping to offset some of the grocery cost for September by making freezer meals now and then making super simple crockpot meals the other days. I have had a lot of fun planning this out and am so ready to get started! Just have to do a little grocery shopping and then I'll be ready to rock!
I'm excited to try some new tricks that I have learned today while cruising the net:
1. use grated fresh carrot with ground beef to bulk up the beef
2. marinate meat such as steaks and chicken in freezer bags so that as they thaw they marinate as well!
3. Disposable pans! I actually have been doing this already but it makes clean up so much easier when all you want to do is eat and then play with the kiddo.... or relax. ;-)
4. There are so many AWESOME food blogs out there!! I wish I was dedicated enough to write one about trying to become a more organized cook. :-p
HMM I thought I had learned more today but I guess a few tips isn't too bad for not even starting yet. :-) I'll let ya know how it goes.... maybe even document it, ha!

Sunday, July 10, 2011

July, July, July

I FINISHED and GOT MY PROFESSIONAL CERTIFICATION APPROVED!!!!! YAHOO!!! This is a huge, gigantic weight off my shoulders. The day after I finally turned my portfolio in truly felt like the first day of summer vacation and I was already about 3 weeks in! My buddy in this, Carley, had hers turned in about a week before me which is probably what got me to actually get it done in June and not July Ha! Hopefully the two of us will do some celebrating together soon. :-)
Summer break has been slowly creaping by which I am loving. The only bad part is I'm almost halfway through which means it will suddenly start flying by- it always does. While I enjoy the people I work with I would LOVE to be a 100% stay at home mom. I love being Dax's mom and taking care of him all day long. It just feels like this is what I am REALLY supposed to be doing. The beauty of my job is that I do get to be a stay at home mom for part of the year. I am learning to enjoy every second of it. I'm also dreading going back to the office because of some changes at the state level that will impact our program. Not sure what they are exactly yet but means once again we will have some changes in store. Will make fall interesting figuring them out and getting the year rolling.
Dax is growing like a weed, of course. :-) Everyday he's doing something new, saying something new and getting into new forms of trouble, ha! He loves playing in the pool and has even tripped a couple of times going under the water and doesn't panic. He is really starting to be hilarious with everday antics. He loves to tell the cows and dogs to 'go on' but it sounds more like g-on. Oh and he also throughs in an arm motion with it that really completes it. He is also starting to really jabber and regularly will start telling a 'story' that I only recognize about half the things he's telling me. He loves to talk about Daddy, Bill and sissy. Often telling me something about them while laughing, saying 'no no' and their names. It's very funny! He LOVES being outside and throws a fit about going inside unless Daddy or Uncle Bill are around- he'll follow them anywhere. :-)
I have been semi-sucessful on the garden front all ready. :-) Corn, onions and pumpkins are all coming up in the garden, even if nothing actually comes out of the garden I'm just excited that something came up!! Next year I'm going to expand my selection with other veggies.
I think that's about it for now. I am horrible about writing posts and pretty sure they're probably boring to just about everyone besides me, ha! Hope someone is still reading this. :-p
Dax sharing a popsicle with Daddy

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

SUMMER BREAK!!!!!



A week ago today I was working my very last school day of the year. I remember being so excited for June 1st way back in August but I really didn't think it would come so fast. I truly wasn't quite ready for it. So far I am loving the break! Dustin, Dax and I have been outside almost every day working in the yard, the garden or just playing. It's great! Dax adores being outside and throws a fit almost everytime we have to go inside.


The week before break began Dax and I got to go on the end of year field trip to Astoria, OR. It was wonderful and Dax was an absolute ANGEL! He cried very, very little on our super long road trip and got to meet several new friends. The first night we drove to Portland to spend the night with my cousin Kristen and her family. Dax is blessed to have two cousins that are close to his age- especially Miss Leah who is about 5 months older than him. It was very fun to watch them play, catch up with Kristen and visit the zoo!


Leah and Dax after the train ride at the zoo.



On Monday we drove the rest of the way to Astoria and then felt like we didn't slow down until the drive home Thursday. :-) Tuesday was spent at Fort Clatsop and Fort Stevens and Wednesday was spent a various museums AND THE BEACH!!! It downpoured for most of the day on Wednesday but the weather broke about the time we were done with the museums so we high tailed it out of Astoria to Seaside and the beach! It didn't rain on us at all while we were there but the wind was definitely blowing like crazy! It really was fun though. :-) Thursday we headed back to Portland and the zoo for a few hours and then the long trip back home.



At the top of the Astoria Column. If I remember right it was 165 steps to the top!

My backseat drivers. Dax and his buddies Nick and Andrea.

He really loved spending time with them!

Dax watching a penguin at the zoo.

So now that we are settling into summer I realize all the things that need to get done this summer or things I need to just keep working on. I'm going to list them in the hopes I will stay more accountable to myself ha!


1. Start working out and finally lose all my baby weight!!! Water aerobics starts in a week! Yahoo!
2. Finish my Pro Cert---- this HAS to get done in the next 2 weeks.
3. grow a garden--- it's already planted so now I have to water and weed
4. teach Axle to sit and come when he's called.... he should already know how to do this but... well.. he doesn't...
5. Keep my plants alive
6. Clean the carpets in the house
7. De-clutter our house. I have too much stuff and it needs to either find a place or go someplace else
8. Work on making meals ahead of time. I've already started this a little- so far I've made and frozen a pasta dish and breakfast burritos. I think this will really help when I head back to school in the fall.
9. Keep the 4 baby turkeys alive. If we can keep these four babies alive we're bound to keep some chickens alive and get some farm eggs to boot!
10. OOO and not get attached to the baby turkeys since we are planning to eat them for Thanksgiving--- although Dustin already mentioned maybe keeping one as a pet.
11.Plan playdates with my friends! We all talk about it but all too often we get too busy to actually commit
Okay I think that is it for now. Ha!

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Kisses and Loves


Dax has always been such a love. Since he was tiny he has liked nothing more than a good snuggle. When he's overwhelmed he will run to the closest arms he can find. Lately though he was become a really lover. If he accidently hits someone he immediate wants to give a hug or a kiss to make up for it. Even when he's really mad at you.

All of our animals get loves from Dax. Axle and the kitties sit pretty still for him to love on them (surprising for a puppy, right) and Dakota would love to sit still for him but she just can't seem to do it. When he gives loves to the animals or little babies he will lay his head on them and say Muah. It's a combo of a hug and a kiss all at once.


We got some fun pictures of him and one of the little girls from daycare, Ally, kissing. I've also heard that he's walked right up to Nyla, Thea and Ruby and given them smooches. Oh we are in so much trouble!

I think it helps a lot that all the kiddos at daycare are very affectionate to each other. They all really love eachother and get so excited to see their friends. Dax literally ran into daycare last week and was met by a super excited Ty who always runs up to him and says DA!!! It's very sweet.

Oh how I am loving this age but still missing my tiny little boy.